Though the variations were many, my main theme was always "How godawful I am!" Just as I often exaggerated my modest attainments by pride, soI exaggerated my defects through guilt. I would race about, confessing all (and a great deal more) to whoever would listen.
Believe it or not, I took this widespread exposure of my sins to be great humility on my part, and considered it a great spiritualasset and consolation!
But later on I realized at depth that the great harms I had done others were not truly regretted.
These episodes were merely the basis for storytelling and exhibitionism. With this realization came the beginning of a certain amount of humility.
GRAPEVINE, JUNE 1961