I've been very privileged to be able to access a lot of therapy over the decades of my recovery, including free therapy. I hope that if you need therapy, you can access it.
I'm one of those odd specimens who really loves therapy, even though it's often hard. Scratch that: it's always hard.
But so far, it's always been worth it. The things that I have learned about myself in therapy have changed my life.
Here's my short list of things learned: Hearts broken in childhood take a lot of time to heal. Missing someone is not the same as grieving someone (now, that one blew me out of the water).
Anger is almost always inner pain turned outward. I like to mother the people I love (could be responsible for my nickname, Mama Dawn).