I write for a living, but what I get paid for is professional and academic-style writing. I love it, and it's important work because most of it focuses on women, mental health, addiction, and recovery.
But it's this kind of writing, sharing here what I have learned and experienced in my life and in my recovery, this is the type of writing that drives me to my computer most days. Although I'm usually jazzed to share my thoughts about recovery (I have at least 366 thoughts, apparently), I also like to keep a lot of my writing private.
I cannot tell you how many (partially filled) journals I have, many of them with tear stains on the pages. I bleed all over the paper (not literally, and besides, I type more now).
My rawest writing is the writing where I try to process what the hell is going on for me. The kind of writing that allows me to get in touch with myself on such a deep level that I scream or laugh or cry so hard for my dead mother that snot drips onto my keyboard.
If you haven't tried writing your recovery, I highly recommend it. Doesn't it sound fun?